Yesterday at noon, as I drove home on my lunch break from work, I turned on Prayz Network. Each day as I drive home I switch on the radio and listen to Pastor Greg Laurie give his daily message. I find that the wisdom God gives Pastor Greg generally has a way of latching onto my heart strings; his messages really speak to me. Yesterday was an example of that. I've had a lot on my mind lately and I'm thinking a lot about my future. "Where should I be? What is best for Brennan and I? Should I focus on my passions? Should I stay put? What step should I take next?"
I find that I'm constantly trying to plan out my future and although I stay in prayer over these issues, I find myself focusing more on MY will rather than God's. I pray for God's will, yet I push for my own.
Today's message reminded me that prayer isn't what I've habitually made it to be. Prayer isn't always a quick fix, an easy out, something to mark off my check list, or something I should try to abuse to get my way. Prayer is a place where I am to line "my will" up with God's, soak in His grace, love, and forgiveness, and get to know Him better.
Here are a few things Greg had to say about prayer yesterday, and some key points that made me think:
"What is the primary objective of prayer? To line my will up with the will of God.
True prayer is not overcoming God's reluctance; it's laying hold of his willingness.
Here's how I pray: I pray for what I think is right but I always add 'nevertheless, not my will, let your will be done.'
When you're praying, if the request is wrong... God will say 'No'. If the timing is wrong, God will say 'Slow'. If you are wrong, God will say 'Grow'... but if the request is right, and the timing is right and you're right, God will say 'Go'." -Pastor Greg Laurie
Since we're on the topic of lining our will up with God's, I started writing a song a few months back which talked about this very thing... but took it a little further even. The song is about how I've tried to be the author of my own story and how I've used God to simply be the editor of my mistakes in the story. I've found that way of living completely backwards. God needs to be the author of my story, not just the editor who fixes all of MY mistakes. It works much more smoothly when we hand over the pen and paper and allow Him to write the novel to our life. I find this can be hard at times. I like knowing what's going to happen next. I'm a planner and I'm not a fan of the "unknown", but I'm also tired of planning out my chapters and finding that I've made quite a disaster, then desperately pleading for God to fix my errors. It's not always God's plan for us to know what life may bring in the new chapters. Just as we read a book, we read one chapter at a time. It doesn't make sense to skip from one chapter to the next without finishing the one you're on. We must trust that God's will is better than anything we could conjure up... and we must rest in that.
(This song isn't 100% finished yet but I plan to post a video with the song complete in the near future.)
V1:
The future untold
Full of unknowns
I'm not convinced
What's my story?
V2:
I've written my chapter,
It's full of disaster,
I'm laying my pen down,
I'm stepping away now
Chorus:
Be the author, Oh be the author.
Be the author, Oh be the author.
V3:
This chapter is yours,
I'm trusting you
Please take the lead
Write my story
V4:
Youve been my reviser
Please be my designer
I'm laying my pen down,
I'm stepping away now
Chorus:
Be the author, Oh be the author
Be the author, Oh be the author
Bridge:
Be the healer of brokenness
Be the freer of woefulness
Be the hand that creates new life
You make all things right
You make all things right...
Yes, you make all things right.